Romans 1:21 For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or GIVE THANKS TO HIM
I get it. I feel like my eyes have been opened to a deep Truth that was always there (of course, there is nothing new under the sun...) but that I never saw. We hear often of idols in current teaching at church and Redemption Group. The idea is not new but today it lives in me as a disturbing, convicting realization of where my heart has been. The reason I turn from God, the Worthy Object of my Worship, to a pathetic yet deeply desired substitute is because of my ungrateful heart. An ungrateful heart paves the road to idolatry.
I am saying to God, "No thanks, what you are offering me is not quick enough, pleasurable enough, tangible enough, powerful enough to satisfy and soothe my needy heart. I am unhappy and discontent with You and Your Promises - I'll use food, drugs, sex, money, numbing, tears, depression to make me feel better. After all, that is all I want right now. Right. Now. I want to feel better." Skillet sings a song with those lyrics and it has been on a continual loop in my head.
This morning, another song began wriggling its way into my heart - the words of the beloved carol..."For He alone is Worthy, Christ the Lord..." He ALONE is worthy of my worship. I have worshipped at the alter of the known god for too many weeks now: the alter of Jen. The sacrifices I brought have come at a high price to many I know and love.
The highest price has already been paid and I have been ungrateful for the Ransom. I am humbled and made grateful today for His plentiful redemption in my life. I am reminded of the starting point of my journey in this blog: Recognizing Jesus. Lord, may I see you more quickly, worship you more purely, give thanks to you continually.